♥Call her Sara, fo' real.
♥17 Year Old child of November.
♥Dwells in the land of Malaysia.
♥Has already DONE SPM.
♥Now a student at Sunway-Uni.
♥Hopes to relocate to the land down under.
♥A bibliophilic girl with a shoe fetish.
♥Give her your brain with a higher IQ
and she'll marry you for eternity. ♥Has a theory that she'll die
of Rectal Cancer.
♥Discovered something devastating about her birth.
1. Ipod Touch
2. Chanel No.5
3. A trip to Champs-Élysées.
4. Lady Chatterley's Lover by DH Lawrence.
5. Lord of the Flies by W.Golding.
6. Every SINGLE book written by Nicholas Sparks.
7. Tokio Hotel's Zimmer 483
8. Brain Juice.
9. More tee's with quotes.
10. Waistcoat.
11. Felt Floppy Hat.
12. OMG Hat.
13. Lagoon with my friends.
Not many people know I have a blog. That's because I don't have the intention of telling them I have one. Who knows if I tell almost everyone I know, one would get the wrong idea after they've read my post and start spreading this social bubonic plague called 'rumours' .
Anyhoo, I would like to write something different. This is about my one and only...dad. Apak.
Dad, I loved you when I was little. You were always my source of laughter. When mom sometimes asked me 'Who do you love more?' I would always reply 'Both of you !' The days where we went travelling abroad, smiled in the snap shots, talked all sorts of stuff 'till I laughed my jaws off. There were the days when I was amazed that you could play a variety of musical instruments. There were the days when you took us to your former highschool in KL. I had a glimpse of what your boyhood world had looked like. And there were the days...where we were truly father and daughter.
And now we're here, Apak. If only I could ask you, where did it all go wrong? Where have you been? What happened to the dad I once loved heartfully? Why are you mentally hurting mama so often these days? Why are you being silly? Why do you act so unpredictable? Why oh why are you burdening on mama...? And ultimately...why am I not proud of you that your my special dad anymore and that I get the feeling that I don't want you as my dad anymore?
There are times when I wept alone, thinking how far this family will hold on. There are times when I wanted to ask you all these questions I had locked up inside of me since long, but as I thought, even if I told you, would you react? Or still turn a blind eye away? Apak, if only you could see how much hearts you've broken repeatedly, especially mama and me...
I love you Apak, but not as purely as I once did...
Brilliant picture of Haley Joel Osment annd Gerard Depardieu. From the movie Bogus. Does this still exist between us, apak...?
The Chemique signing out!
What's that you're listening, jukebox? : Pantun? by Zainal Abidin
