I have to admit, I'm pretty darn good with kids. I dunno how or why I've developed this kind of sub-personality of mine. But I think the first time I've interacted with kids in a special way was when last year, I believe. Back in October where we frequently had family reunions on my mother's side of the family at Grandmom's Hse (maternal grandmother).
Because I've never had a very close cousin, (saved for Ayesha although she and my sister are more likely to match) I had this theory where my 'relative limerence' towards my 4 younger cousins is a result of transference; where my relations to my other older cousins are slightly weak, I've subsequently transferred all my feelings of care and love towards my 4 younger cousins, and more broadly, children.
And ever since then, all them lil' cousins will come up to me, speak in jibberish and fight for my attention (or so I've apparently discovered o.O), my relatives call me The Pied Piper, and my mom says that I'm very fascinated with kids, which is true and that made me feel all good inside :] Perhaps one day, I'll take a picture of all 4 of 'em and you can see how they look like :D
Since I am a girl, I think society will think less of me as a pedophile or a minor sex predator (which I CLEARLY AM NOT!), because every time I'm in a car on the way to God knows where, I've known to interact with a neighboring kid (also in a car) . Waving hands, making funny hand gestures, and funny faces on the window. Yes, that kinda thing :'D And fortunately, their parents don't seem to mind a total stranger waving to their kid and making all sorts of silliness from the other side of another car.
Nonetheless, I feel all this sudden love for children has truly affected me in one way or another. Well for one, I think I'd want to be ambitious and become a successful Child Psychologist in the future. Since I can't stand the sight of blood, which I can't go to a medical school, which I can't become a pediatrician wtf o.O, I guess studying to become a Child Psychologist is another way for me to work with kids. :D
Well, that's all for tonight now. Gonna get some shut eye for now. Ta!
The Chemique signing out~!
What's that you're listening, jukebox? : 1,2,3,4 by Feist
